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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
- bad day.bad mi -
thr's something i reali nid to chan hui... haiz... got a job interview to go down tis morning... a receptionist job.. i tot i was all rite with it... but whn i arrive thr, guess wat, i was with my heels... and the area was so ulu i dunno whr i was... felt so stranded... thr wasn't even any pavement from the bus stop for mi to walk... and i had to walk the grasses, and big road, whr big trucks and lorries jus swept pass mi...*scared*
arrived at the workplace... it was tuas industrial area btw.. initially i tot, mayb it wouldn't be that bad... jus go try out... but it turned out to be a factory i tink...and i seriously don't feel comfy with the environment... perhaps because its industrial area... i dunno... not trying to be picky... u'll noe i'm not whn u read further...
i arrived, and thr was already another candidate waiting for an interview.. next moment, i was asked to fill a form and the other candidate went in for the interview... whn it was my turn, the HR personel chatted with mi a lil', name some conditions... blah blah... initially i wasn't very keen le.. (upon reaching) but i tot i shd still jus go for the interview as a form of courtesy... but ended up, i got the job immediately... the lady spoke to the current receptionist, asking her to teach mi the stuff, and asked the other candidate to leave... omigod... i din wanted it to be tis way.. reali had the urge to ask her not to leave... and said i wanna leave... i dun wanna sound childish... but, i reali din wana work thr le... in the end, she taught mi everything, and even introduced mi to some of the staff...
i felt like crying... like i'm being forced to work thr.. i noe no one's forcing mi... but... i dunno... i felt so helpless at that moment... while i was thr, the agent called and asked mi how was it... i told her i felt uncomfortable... but i tink i got a scolding from her... she kept pushing and pressurising mi to take it... and it seemed like thr's no way i could reject... =( i left the place, and i'm supposed to head for the office at Jurong.. to sign the contract... felt so helpless.. called mummy... to tell her abt it... at tat time i was still in tuas, at tis bus stop, waiting for tis ulu bus which i've never taken b4... she asked mi to reject the job... and mummy sounded so firm... she din wan mi to feel unhappy in my job... so she told mi, if i'm not comfy with it, jus tell the agent... i said i tried telling her le..but doesn't seem to work... mummy jus told mi no one can force mi... and don't work for obligations... i don't owe them anything.. if i dun wan, jus tell the agent.. she told mi to call the agent.. i hung up... tot thru... honestly... i reali din wana take it.. but i felt very very bad.. and irresponsible... its like, i've sort of undergone the training... and now, i'm turning back and say i don't want the job... the recept thr told mi, they took a very long time to search for a replacement... and somehow, she chose mi immediately over the other... and she looked quite happie.. now i'm doing tis... gosh... i'm so bad... reali.. felt so so so guilty.. wanted to learn from wy.. jus tink of the money, don't care abt anything else... besides its onli one month... haiz... i dunno... i was reali on the verge of calling the agent and say ok to it... but can't bring myself to... finally, i rejected it... the agent sort of called mi to scold mi... but... dunno la...
i'm tinking... am i becoming a worse person... its so irresponsible of mi... gosh... i'm so bad... reali sorry....
Written @ 7:12 PM
