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Tuesday, April 03, 2007
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its all about friends vs rs again...

why am i always so caught in between this.. i dun understand.. isn't the company tat shd matter the most? why aren't u saying stuff like, "its ok, as long as ur there can le.. doesn't matter who else is coming along.. as long as i cn go with u..." why not... is tat an expectation again? yes i guess so... i dun wan to make choices.. i dun wan.. but why am i always cornered to such situations... where i just have to...

today's a day... a day full of tots... went home stonely.. and quietly... din wan to go home.. initially tot of goin down raffles place to find mummy... wait thr for her to end work while i'll just study at p.c.c... or headin to wanping's hall.. but 'm not sure if she's ard.. or go home and stone? yup i chose tat... i wana runaway again..

i just merely wish to take a break.. from everything.. escape to elsewhere... thailand.. anywhr.. but its just so difficult... we hold the happiness in our own hands... but why is my happiness so controlled by ppl ard mi... by someone who just keeps squashing it up... squeezing it so tightly...

i guess the most naive part of mi.. would be to always run away from matters tat i dun wish to talk about... i'll run away... mentioning, facing up to things u dun wish to.. takes a lot of courage... takes a lot of tears... knowing tat u'll be soo affected after tat... so u just dun wish to touch it... leave it aside first.. but the politically correct solution, of cuz is to deal with it.. but its never tat easy... my horns are coming out...go away.

                                                                                                          
                                                                                                             Written @ 9:30 PM
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