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Thursday, April 12, 2007
i know i just have to pull myself together.. yes i have to.. at least for this critical period.. please... don't let anything else happen anymore... there's really a limit to this... missed a friend's date just to remedy a relationship.. something i guess i would never do... but, i did it anyway... feeling super bad about it now.. but at least, i'm glad i know she'll understand..

i went to school early in the morning today.. and honestly intended to just sit at the canteen by myself... after learning that hannah will only be in school at 1pm.. but, i forgot to bring my handphone.. actually left it at home.. and i simply have no choice but to seek someone else's handphone for help... and i went up to the standard tutorial room. feel so bad, cuz i'm merely borrowing a "call".. and after that, i disappeared all the way until marketing tutorial..

alone at the canteen.. it kept me thinking... who's going to eat lunch with me? i want to go fal to print stuff.. can i leave my things in the canteen? can i just go to the ladies for a while? how come i'm only facing these problems now? that's because i'm not always alone.. but today, i made myself alone. sounds abnormal.. but i have no other way out i guess.. the pressure is seriously coming down... with every single message entering my phone, unhappily replied... and i almost couldn't take it anymore... teared as i studied company law.. my eyes was still suffering from the soreness from yesterday's tears.. seriously, i was brainstorming, who's in school who can eat with me? luckily hannah came early... i hid my tears fast.. carried on the rest of the day smiling and talking away... sometimes its really hard to conceal.. but i'm glad i manage to do it quite well.. poor buddy, hadn't talked to him for the whole day, and not even during marketing lecture, and not even studying with him... he must be thinking he did something wrong or what.. but just because he's my buddy, he knows me too well.. its too difficult to hide... and just did not want him to probe anything...its bad to make people worry... but oops.. i guess i made dearest wanping worried last nite.. sorry bestie..

whatever is it, i'm glad i'm finally home safely... and i'm in the comfortable hands of daddy and mummy.. (daddy's back!) ... nothing else matters.. at least for now... don't let anything else matter..

                                                                                                          
                                                                                                             Written @ 8:32 PM
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