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Monday, May 14, 2007
officially started work today -->> 14th may

official ending date -->> 21st july

and i'm counting down...

i feel so lousy... as a person... why am i so useless.. i can't seem to make ppl ard me happy... perhaps tats not my job... but it does affect mi... ALOT....

the feeling of "there's nothing you can do about it..".. the feeling of helplessness.. the feeling of lost... the feeling of guilt... the feeling of lousiness.. everything... the heart aching feeling... its all coming back again... every single word and action... every emotion and expression... it hurts mi to the core...

i'm scared too... but there'r others feeling much much worse than me... and i can't be selfish to say that in MY world, i'm feeling lousy means everything... i can't... i hate tis helpless feeling... especially when it happens to ppl close to u... the closer u are, the worse it gets, the harder it feels... i'm scared... you're making me scared of u... first day of work.. and all that i get is demoralisation... i'm scared... but i noe ur feeling even more scared... but why issit i just don't seem to hit the bullseye in comforting u? why issit that i always don't seem to get or do what u wan... lousy me..

i need to stay strong... i must... because my friends need me... he needs me too... can't fall down at this point of time... jiayou jasmine... jiayou...

                                                                                                          
                                                                                                             Written @ 10:38 PM
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