welcome
memories, though short-lived, brings the best smiles to your life
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have been trying to load in from my lappe but it kept saying -- redirecting-->>redirecting-->>redirecting.. haiz.
i think i owed alot of entries.. entries which i previously were so enthu to blog about, but haf been waiting for pictures to come in... and they are still not in yet.. aniwae, my last disc of 爱情魔发师 isn't completed yet... wats wrong with me man..
my sister matriculated today, and fortunately i was back in time to help her... though couldn't help much oso, but at least beta than her scratching head and pulling hair to figure out whatever the ntu thingy is all about.. excited that my beloved sis is gonna join mi in school.. (haz.. i dun really sound excited huh.. )
forgive mi, i'm seriously excited and happy about the issue, just that there are a couple of things up my head, that i'm trying to shake off... yupz..
ever felt like ur overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts, but u just dunno how to put them down in words... now i am. so i shall just blog abt happenings, until i'm ready and will subconsciously name them down...went for tuition today, and was really super tired... came back from school after submitted my pa report and visited popular to check out the textbooks.. nope, not here yet... went to help yk wrap his books, den rushed home to catch a half-hour nap before heading for tuition... *yawn* was all ready to go for a 3hour tuition, but i left in about 1hr 45 min... guess what.. my student - the brother, just returned from school, one hour after i arrived, and he has bruises on his eye-lid and a cut across his cheek.. i thought he fought! but he said, it was the basketball... yupz.. so decided to give him this day off.. little boy looked so shag, couldn't bring myself to continue aniwae... reached home and took a 2 hour nap then... *full*
things have been peaceful recently... at least for a continuous period, i was happy.. i dun dare to expect or foresee how things would be after school starts... will things continue as such? or will i return to those teary, stormy days where 'peace' is a faraway word..? dun dare to think..
perhaps i'm too pampered.. but i never want to leave my parents' arms.. i wana be protected by them.. i wana be doted by them... i'm selfish... but this is sth irreplaceable...i used to worry about the balance between friendship and relationship... yes, ur best pals will definitely understand that u have other commitments... so old le... wouldn't be that childish to say " i dun friend u.." but still, i just wouldn't let go... somehow i wan to belong... and now, the balance is between family and relationship... i wan to belong... telling the whole story, will just make mi seem childish.. but i dun care.. i just wan to belong.. and i guess, i'm the only one who understands myself...
starting to feel i'm losing a friend... an important friend, who has walked with me, been there for me at almost every step of my uni life... words could really tear friendships... and i dunno hw tattered it is now... but it feels so weird... feels so heavy... weighted down with knots... and i dunno how to untie them... perhaps i dun wan to... no point... tired of explaining... tired of trying to think for others.. tired of trying to be nice.. i'm evil actually. i'm glad that at least you have two more friends to be there for u.. =)
can i forever be that little gal? i wan to be a little gal.. but it's so hard to be me..
read 'g's blog and though she doesn't have a taggybox, i really want to tell her i understand how it feeels... but its soo hard to put across.. perhaps like what she said... its not that i can't... rather, its i don't want to..
breathe.