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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
always feel so enlightened after reading roomie's blog.. its like a sense of "life" thingy.. relieved and comforted.. =)
aniwae, today's my 22nd birthday.. but it seems to me like any other ordinary day.. perhaps because that someone is no longer beside me..
really appreciate the efforts of all my beloved dearies and cherishables, planning dinners and celebrations for me.. though the day barely started and celebrations haf not yet celebrated, jus wish to say a big thank you.. my friends.
reached home ard 10 plus last night after coming back from our mini og gathering.. was too tired to do any work, so i headed up straight to bathe and sleep.. never tried sleeping away my birthday at twelve midnight.. but i did it.. so i only woke up in the middle like 4am to read bdae msgs .. sorry guys that u'r waited till 12midnight to msg me yet ur pig fren here's alr snoring away.. oops.
wt's very funny.. or rather, he jus has this heart-warming smile and thinking.. u tot tat he doesn't know. but acty he knows alot.. that kind of feeling.. we were in the Allan's car, so wt and i sat behind.. i immediately hugged the pillow and sleep.. but after waking up several times, wt and i started to chat.. talked abt boon long, our common friend, den abt tut mates, abt planning timetable, den he mentioned abt group b ppl.. he jus said sth like, he only planned with them once.. and he preferred planning with different ppl for different sems.. allowed him to gain more perspectives.. den we both kept quiet.. haha after a while, he reached his destination, as he was abt to alight, i lightly tapped him and smiled a thank you, for the dinner.. can imagine his position was like, abt to alight, so facing the car door, but he immediately turned and face directly, sitting properly, and gave me a WIDE smile.. den he raised his hand to me to shake mine, saying "happy birthday".. =)
perhaps we weren't very close to start with, that's why towards his 言行举止 , i tink i'd feel even more gan dong.. his bdae wishes tis morning, included a line "there is still A LOT more in store for you in life. so don't keep looking back ok? haha" i don't feel sad or offended or reminded at all... but was smiling to myself.. 安慰吧... 有这样的朋友.. 谢谢..=)
i was somehow waiting for his msg.. but till now i haven received any.. but subconsciously, i'd rather not receive anyth from him, don't wanna be reminded.. i know one day, i'll hafta let this down.. or, i want to let this down.. still be able to talk to him and see him without feeling the pain.. and i know this day will come.. i'm jus waiting.. building up my courage day by day to welcome this day..going out with kc later to "celebrate".. he seemed to haf a lot of plans, and being super secretive about it.. but i can tell he's really happy abt it..even happier than the birthday gal.. i'm really thankful to haf him.. thankful to haf weiyun, thankful to haf evofus.. to walk with me... and most importantly, my family, my dearest joyjoy.. who's always always thr to cry with me.. weird that i'm like typing a 感谢script.. haha.. but ya at least this is what i wana say.. i love u all..
last but not least, happy 22nd birthday to myself.
Written @ 11:00 AM
