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Thursday, July 29, 2010
can you believe it? i'm like on a straight 4 days mc now.. i haven tried that in my life before.. haha.. dunno whether want to laugh or cry.. well, there's pros and cons.. wait. this is nt considering my last week's friday's mc.. thats like, 5 days? if u imagine how many times i must submit the mcs to my ao.. die..
ppl might think i'm slacking.. but when u really hear me talk.. or maybe croak.. then u'll know.. i'm living day by day now.. with no motivation to work.. only motivation to charm and maybe watch dvds..i guess these days serve good to make me really think through.. i've been thinking alot.. having had enough of what i've done these 2 years, maybe its time for a change. something that maybe no one has ever thought / expected me to go into.. but that's what i hope to try.. tax.
u know, when i had those thoughts too, i'm afraid to voice them out.. i'm afraid of hearing ppl say, chey.. cuz kc is goin tax.. tats why u oso wan to go.. but its nt.. but i duno how to explain.. finally had a good chat with dardar that day.. and sort of unlocked this deep hidden secret of miine.. perhaps we both cn head for the same path? i'm nt as good, but i'm really willing to learn.. at least i know i cn be slightly more confident and better in this, than in banks.
ok so what should be the route? i have asked my cousin abt her firm. she said there are openings, but, most likely will downgrade. our firm's the same too.. tats what was offered to kc.. but honestly, other than the pay, i seriously dun mind being a2 all overagain.. reason being, i honestly dun haf the experience and knowledge to be a senior.. but.. the difference is really alot.. monetary terms.. what shd i do? one thing is, its money vs dreams. being a2 in tax: i get to do something atleasti'm interested in, i get to go back early, i get more personal time and can concentrate on my other potential careers, i get a stable job and i dun mind being stagnant cuz i dun really wana climb the corporate ladder.. being s1 in a*dit, late hours, no personal time, potential weekends gone.. tired, yes u get to climb and have lots of exposure.. but, is this really what i wan?
sometimes i do envy my cousin, who worked in graduated w B.Acc, worked in e*, pursued and obtain a Masters Acc, and then quit. become a housewife and looking after her baby girl.. yes nw she's back to work, but its a part time kinda hours, like, only first half of the day. seems quite nice.. but mummy commented, its a waste, she studied even till masters! and nw she's a housewife.. one being a housewife, soon, if u dun keep up with the latest updates, ur brain will also go degenerated.. right? tats nt what i want too.. ok. lets stop digressing and keep focus.. how abt staying on as s1 in a*dit for a year, get my cpa, then move on to tax? i tink till then whn they wanna downgrade, i won't feel so much of a pain? its still ard the 4 range right?
ok so ultimately, i want a stable job. a job that can allow me to utilise my knowledge, and after work, i have time for my 2nd career, so in the meantime, i can bring home a stable source of income, yet can do something i really like.. so, now that i've locked my eyes on it.. now it's the route. the route..
i'm still thinking...ok the medicine is makin me drowsy.. i'm going to get some rest..
Written @ 10:59 AM
