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Friday, January 20, 2012
This week has been traumatising.. ups and downs..
Monday: Gym day with Weiyun :) keeping fit for the coming bridal shoots makes me feel excited and filled with anticipation..really willing to go a 100 miles just to look good and take nicey pictures with dardar.. but i guess the nicest pictures, begin with happiness..
Tuesday: attended Jiarong's grandma's wake at AMK.. could see jiarong was quite shagged.. given that she's the eldest grand daughter, and with her character, you know she will handle and manage everything by herself. life is fragile, treasure and cherish..
Wednesday: walked home on tuesday night feeling crampy.. i was still skyping dardar on my way home.. till i thought my period came and the pain was increasing.. so i stopped the call and walked home, pressing my tummy.. Morning, the pain was still there.. I reached office and had breakfast with Mummy. After breakfast, when crossing the roads, I suddenly held on to Mummy because the pain in my tummy was unbearable.. it felt like it was menstrual cramps and the severe diarrhea pains that i used to have. i was nauseous and felt like vomitting.. it was terrible.. rushed to the toilet and stayed there for close to an hour.. i really felt like dying.. it was terrible.. horrible.. i thought i was going to faint.. i really hated these stomachaches.. why do i always have to suffer from these pains.. these unbearable pains..
took mc for the day and rested at home.. but the crampy pain at my lower abdominal still didn't subside.. my sister told me it could be urinary tract infection, but i ignored.. just continue thinking it was just the aftermath of diarrhea.. a torturing day.. but i just told dardar who's overseas, that i'm fine..
Thursday: went back to work and ate very mildly. gotta cancel the gym exercise with Weiyun cuz i had difficulties walking.. every step was painful.. can imagine how long i took to walk to and fro republic plaza and office.. daddy and mummy were concerned.. we went to deliver strawberries and cherries to keng chuan's parents. they were happy.. happy to see them happy. had dinner at hougang, had difficulty eating because every mouth swallowed, my tummy hurts.. until i can't continue eating.. decided that we should see the doctor tomorrow morning.
Friday: went to see doctor in the morning, diagnosed it should be urinary tract infection. felt relieved, at least finally determined the cause, and it wasn't some unknown factor which i keep calling "stomachache". dardar managed to arrive earlier than expected today. *happy* he headed home and rested well. glad that he like the cherries we bought for him..
sorry i complained.. sorry i had expectations again.. sorry for indirectly pushing you away again.. sometimes i feel, i don't want to marry out.. i enjoy and really love the attention and concern my parents are giving me.. you can see they are really worried.. and my mum will every now and then see the twitch on my face, see my slowing down in eating, and ask me is it painful? i don't think i can get these concerns anywhere else.. nowhere else.. treasure ba.. these happy times, is probably up to this year end.
Written @ 9:46 PM
