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Sunday, February 05, 2012
Jus to clarify, morning what happened was, I alr feel quite left out in this chat thing.. N u all are meeting earlier to play mj. I feel left out.. But u dunno and u still tell me I must do my part cuz I'm the organizer.. U don't know how I feel yet still step on me somemore... 

U think I'm pure lazy.. Alw ask u to contact them msg them.. Did it occur to u that, as much as I do like to have gatherings cuz that's when everyone will be happy and haf fun, I'm glas that everyone can meet.. But why I m alw laid back later, is because the harsh reality is, I'm just not as sociable on those chat groups.. Not as active.. N when u are not the centre, u get ignored and abandon.. I feel left out.. Yes u will tell me, don't organize, dont arrange.. But do u understand that, even if the whole world doesnt understands me, if I haf u, ur support, ur understanding, that would be sufficient.. But no.. I don't have that at all...

I can understand how juan juan feels that time.. But even after I said all these, I'll probably still have to face these independently,. I'm just alone..

Alone.. Myself..

I felt better after crying.. But my emotional tank is almost empty.. How long or far can the tears bring me..

                                                                                                          
                                                                                                             Written @ 12:01 AM
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